In my own way, I revered the children lost today by holding my children tonight and laughing together at dinner. At some point during the weekend, I will have to introduce them to the idea of the tragedy that happened today in Connecticut, just not yet.
For tonight, they are sleeping soundly without sadness. Before Ben returns to school on Monday, we will have to talk about what happened. One of the best pieces of advice I read today was to turn off the television and love on our children; to proceed with our weekend as planned.
The other part of the solution is to share our sadness and talk about it because they will hear it at school. I want them to be prepared. I also want to hear their ideas of things we can do to help. Children are so giving and so creative. Their response to the families might be really touching.
For tonight, we enjoyed each other. And in the heartbeat of my mommy brain, I felt steady pulses of grief for the mommies and families with empty arms.
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One thought on “Bittersweet: The Thud of Pulsing Grief in My Mommy Heart”
I thought of you, Liesl. You’re such a good mom, so creative and full of joy in your children’s accomplishments. Just like all those other moms in Connecticut. My heart is so heavy.