Have you ever wanted to make a change – a big change – and found yourself almost hyperventilating with all the steps that will be necessary to get from where you are now to where you want to be? I am feeling overwhelmed.
This is big for me, and it will take so many steps, and I want to rush in, and rush through them, and not know what I’m doing, and spin in circles, and get overwhelmed. That’s the series of things that would happen if I jumped into this in the way I sometimes jump. I want to leap through the air like a ballerina, only I’ve never learned to dance, so I’d break my leg. You see where this is going? I get overexcited and try too hard to do too many parts of the new thing at once and I fall apart.
I want slow, steady, one step at a time. I want to step ever so slowly onto the balance point of this tightrope, wobble for a while as I try to get it to slow into a holding place, and just stay there long enough to learn that one foot feel, that one foot at its place and how the nonmovement in that place feels. And then, I want to dare to take several breaths in a row and not fall. Then maybe, take the next step and go through the whole process again of wobbling, finding balance, finding foothold, coming to a stillness, and breathing.
There are many steps in my upcoming process, and for each one, I will need to be what, to me, will feel agonizingly slow – but what will, in fact, be what is required.
I am trying to build something. I am wanting to make a difference. That’s all. I want to share positive vibes and meaningful messages of hope and self-love. First, I have to build my audience. If you are here with me, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I want you to know that working to share something that is inspiring is my spiritual practice and what makes my soul full.
Peace and Love to You!
(All photos – except the Inspire sign – are from https://pixabay.com/ Royalty Free Photos)